for Francis

I find myself
on lockdown quite often

shut off
from emotion
no empathy
no sympathy
dear ones
no longer dear
rather an
annoying nuisance
I medicate
with self-love
self-assurance
and a small dose
of self-absorbance

but you,
always interfere
trying to get some
of me
when I’m too
involved
in my world tonight
indulged in
my paradise
my battles
my conquests
and my failures

so,
right now
I don’t really have
room for anyone else
I am on lockdown
shut off
and I like it
I need this – me
why don’t you
see that its best
if I go
because clearly
I am no longer willing
to share – me.