Sunday, May 10, 2009

Moscow City


Old city

Once wooden city

Twice burnt and

Resurrected city

Now as cold 

As its stone walls city

Proud city Moscow -

Where everyone goes 

When there’s no where else to go.


The city lives many lives

Work

School

A  randez-vous

Swept into the metro - 

The spider web of destination

Too many colored lines to name

the labyrinth of the everyday

The madness of one’s agenda

Just making it

Or infiltrating right in,

Through the shoves,

and the elbows,

and enormous purses.

Caught in the prison of someone else’s breath 

Or watching the doors slide shut.


Babushkas - not in bright head scarves,

But gray and shabby,

Not jolly,

No - they are the monuments 

Of old struggles.

They find their purpose

Establishing their presence 

Amidst averting eyes of the young,

Hiding in the books or newspapers

Drowning in the sounds of their iPods.

The Old ride the metro 

To remind their unwilling students

Of how things used to be.


Now sleepless city,

Commercialized city,

Too fast 

and taken for granted city.


If only I could stop time,

Pause your chaos

And see your true beauty, 

my City.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Rina

Dancing with the ghosts of the past,

In a serpentine waltz you know so well.


Exercising distrust -

You prepare to be broken, 

Unwelcoming of the bliss,

Always looking back,

Waiting for it to swallow you.

Unwilling to feel,

To remain Human.


You purposely stumble, 

Rising up for unwarranted trials,

Turning the innocent into the guilty ones.


It stops here.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Untitled

His lids fall heavy to the cheeks
Finally letting go
He lost again.

Midnight darkness tightly
Wraps around his shoulders
Blankets over his mind
Lulling it into a deep
unwanted sleep.

A crawling, growing shadow -
His nightmare returns
like dust to the windowsill.

In the mirror he sees
His image –
Made of clay,
Living and breathing
Colorless
Odorless aura
Swirls around him
He lowers his gaze
To his neck,
Shoulders, his veins
Undulate with each breath.
He knows what is to come.

Crimson vessels like vines
Torn, waiting to berth,
Reaching for the pier
That is there no more.

A perfect box
Cut out and stolen,
Leaving behind a void -
A throbbing window.

His own bellow
Thrust him awake,
Icy drops of sweat
Stinging his flesh.
The clay shell vanished.

And he still knows what is to come –
Another layer of dust on the windowsill.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Under the Bridge


It laughed as it touched the rocks
Rushed past them, never looking back

Each time the rocks welcome it.
Usually the stream of laughter
Brought a sense of peace,
Continuity and stability.
Under the stream
Their hard exterior softened,
Complimenting the fast curves
Of this relentless traveler

- What’s out there?
They asked once in a while.
At times it spoke of
Magnificent landscapes
Or a foul man made world,
Dark underground and its fiends
Sometimes it just wept -
A stream of memories,
Running faster then ever.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

for Francis

I find myself
on lockdown quite often

shut off
from emotion
no empathy
no sympathy
dear ones
no longer dear
rather an
annoying nuisance
I medicate
with self-love
self-assurance
and a small dose
of self-absorbance

but you,
always interfere
trying to get some
of me
when I’m too
involved
in my world tonight
indulged in
my paradise
my battles
my conquests
and my failures

so,
right now
I don’t really have
room for anyone else
I am on lockdown
shut off
and I like it
I need this – me
why don’t you
see that its best
if I go
because clearly
I am no longer willing
to share – me.

Moments on Mute

Its 1:12 am
In this muted room
And he can’t stop listening

Images change on TV,
Tall dramatic silhouettes
In pursuit of shadows
Dark and boring

If you listen
The only thing
Trying to communicate
In this room
Is the dirty old fan
In the window
Sucking
And spewing the smoke
Out -

But he can’t stop listening
To his thoughts
His thoughts
Loud and vivid
They drown out
The fan and
Everything else with it

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Sultana

Surely sugar
She sweetly said,

Solemnly smiling –
She submitted herself
To his shame,
his secrets and sin –

She was his
Symbol,
His
Sacrament,
sketched into his soul

She swayed with him
In a sorrowful symphony –
His sneer
From under the sheets
Saluted her surrender
Her sacrifice of self

She seemed
Blissful,
simply -
her!
Subconsciously,
She swayed another
Stirring within
something sinister,
slithering,
hissing
with self-reproach
remorse…

Surreal
shine sun
spilled over the horizon

and sunk in the sea.
Serenity -

Slowly she swayed
Somewhere, somewhere